Thoughts and Feelings - Feelings are often accompanied by thoughts. The thoughts are built on your feelings in any given situation. But it seems like I have a hard time expressing my thoughts or feelings in words. Enough said, there just aren't any words that can show how your emotions are and what is happening inside your brain. But here is all I can say so far...

Life is very difficult to deal with. Things happen in life that you will never expect to come in anytime soon. When it does, everything looks awful to you; and the mood becomes to dull, dark, and gloomy. Life isn’t healthy with a feeling of sadness and depressed. No one should feel this way, but the worst feeling of all, is giving this feeling to someone you were once close with. I believe it’s better to let everything go no matter how difficult it is. If one partner isn’t fitting well with the connection, then you just let them go. Life is full of craziness. Everything just happens for a reason. You just have to let fate go on its own path.

Well yea, let’s look at things with the word “I”, about me. I have been sleeping very late, around 6 am now. Life is boring, and I’m just working my way around it, as fun as I can. I notice I think too much now, and it’s fucking up with my head. Family and shit is okay, but it’s not perfect. I am not perfect. Nor you can say excellent or good. School is starting soon, I start on the 12^th, but I have orientation on the 7^th, n then I have to do something on the 8^th and 9^th for school. That doesn’t only suck, but mostly all of my friends I made during my half school year are getting kicked out. Either they were in a fight, or too many absences, or failure of grades, but yeah, now I have to make new friends. I’m doing well with my health; you can say I am in good condition.

Friends right now are the best. My cousins are now always here for me. I am having a great time spending every moment with them. My brother and I are closer, he actually has some fun with me, and we drive around everywhere. And currently now, I’m getting to know more about my friends that I missed out on for a couple of years. Its great looking at the good memories from the past I guess, gives me the feeling of being a kid again.

Knowing someone for a long time is really hard to let them go. It gives me the feeling of happiness to actually become their friend. Risking the bond that I have is a very dangerous thing. I think once, and then twice, and even many more when ever I have a free second, to actually know if its okay to make another step. But everything is just so scary that you would just like to stay in one stop to feel safe. What would people do in this situation? Risk it? (Life is short.) Or don’t? (It can ruin everything, and you can never have it back.)

Love is the bull shit to me!!! The teenage life should be filled with fun and laughter. Being in love can give you a pure blissful feeling, but it can not last long, as in the end, another feeling can overcome and crush everything you feel. Life is just not worth getting wreck by love at these ages. Just have fun and be free. Love will come when you least expect it when your older. (Thinking about this, I might never find LOVE.) ^_^

Well this is all that I can think of for this wonderful night, it's near 6 AM now, I should go rest, at least. Love you guys, bye.

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